Posted by tashadeguzman at 02:47 AM on May 27, 2007.

what do you do when you're lonely?

cause i'm stumped.

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Posted by tashadeguzman at 12:04 AM on May 15, 2007.

ay one more thing...

ang poser talaga ng ex ko. hahaha..

the embarrassments of youth nga naman. hayyy.

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The Ungrateful Masses.

Posted by tashadeguzman at 11:45 PM on May 14, 2007.

 

I really just have to say this. The most corrupt people working in the government are the masses. I hate them. They always feel like they're left behind; they feel like they are always the underdog in everything that they become selfish and corrupt, thus impeding the progress of everything else.

The election was hell, especially for those who are directly involved with the whole operation. I hate them because they make my mother stay up so late and go to the office at 5 in the morning, without so much as a fee. right before the election rumors were flying around that this congressman paid my mom a great sum to vote for him. and god what a load of bull. she's not even paid for all her efforts. the nerve of these people. ungrateful fucking bunch of people.

usually i'd feel sorry for those people who are in poverty, but right now i don't have any pity for them. most of them deserve what they have. sure i can't blame them for feeling sorry for themselves, but hell that's mostly what they do, and nothing else.

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Posted by tashadeguzman at 05:06 PM on April 29, 2007.

i have this huge crush on lino cayetano. hayyy.

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psychosomatic distress.

Posted by tashadeguzman at 04:48 PM on April 3, 2007.

im trying my hardest to keep my judgment cause i know im always wrong.

there is nothing to complain about, and yet i'm not happy. i find myself looking for something wrong so that i can blame it on him. i used to know why i do that, so i stopped. but now i can't remember. and i don't want this to make us miserable. i need space, and i want some time alone, but if he complies, i know i won't be able to stand it. it's that bad.

writing this out is all i can do to keep myself from withdrawing again from everyone.

i like being alone, but it's boring. i like people because they're fun but i hate it when they start to expect things from me. i'm like reese bobby from talladega nights. i don't know what's wrong with me. but unlike him, i haven't lost hope that i can still fix myself.

the reality is, there's nothing wrong. i used to be so good at shrugging everything off.

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les valentin heureux

Posted by tashadeguzman at 10:27 PM on February 14, 2007.

today was nice.

i was on the phone till about 1:30am this morning..and joel and i were supposed to meet at 8am at starbucks megastrip. i was late a half hour and then we had breakfast there and he gave me a single red rose and my favorite dark chocolate and then we went to the office and after work we had dinner at yellow cab. un lang. nothing special really but..i never go out on valentines in the past. and it's silly mentioning this disappointment now but  i like getting flowers to be honest, and my last 3 boyfriends were just sensitive enough to sense my embarrassment in getting flowers on valentines so they i never received any from them. un lang nmn.

you know what i like best about dating joel? he actually still treats me like a girl in spite of all my jokes that im actually gay or a lesbo. hehe.

i still don't know why im dating joel in the first place. of course he's cute and all that, but i was never the type to go for looks so i don't think it's just because of that. he's nice, and he treats me well, and he's a gentleman. i still wouldn't date a guy just because of those...ah ewan.

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news news

Posted by tashadeguzman at 04:23 PM on January 20, 2007.

the biggest irony is something is perfect only because of its random flaws.

ah whatever. i'm dating this guy. hehe.

and i'm thinking of starting a photo journal. i dunno if online, or the real tangible photo journal. it'd be more artsy fartsy to do it with my hands where i cut and paste and draw but it'd be more time-consuming. and besides, i can just photoshop everything i like and i'd have more source material if i do it online. hmm.

Currently listening to: david usher - black black heart
Currently reading: irvine welsh - ecstasy

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Posted by tashadeguzman at 09:48 PM on January 16, 2007.

haha that guy is SUCH a kid. lol. man this'll kill me from laughing hehe.

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summer na yay! :D

Posted by tashadeguzman at 01:59 PM on January 13, 2007.

i haven't had the sublime opportunity to sit back and relax in front of the pc for weeks, and god i missed my mp3s, my files, and my internet haha. man the whole time since november was almost a blur, and i really can't recount everything crazy that's happened to me since then. i know i haven't updated this thing since i was last in a relationship, but what the hell hehe. i missed my friends, and well i got my 'social life' back since that time, and found a few more interesting people to get to know.

well the gist of it is, i thought i'd be all morbid and revert to the way i was back then, but i guess i underestimated myself with the whole moving on thing. i'm trying to test the theory that it only takes about two minutes to get to know a person. where have i read that? i guess if you're a judgemental shrink, it would only take that much time, but i am far from that. and i'd hate to get ahead of things.

anyway, i was supposed to go to galera yesterday until tomorrow, all expense paid by chevy but i had responsibilities at the office(huhuhu) which i didn't want to scratch so i'll be the good couch potato this beautiful saturday and watch all the dvd i'm supposed to see. how about that, me postponing a free galera trip for the gadem office. my god. hehe.i still can't believe i did that, since i was all packed and ready to go the other night. *sigh* anyway, we'd go there next time, i'm sure chev'll be organizing about 6 galera trips this summer hehe. and i'm going to bora again on feb! yay! :D and i'd be going with friends. yay! :D and i think on april we're going to palawan. yay! :D ang gastos ko shit hehe.

 

Currently listening to: coldplay - yellow
Currently reading: irvine welsh - ecstasy
Currently feeling: happy

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